"It's been calling me," she says. "But that door's gonna have to jump off the wall and swallow me up if it wants me to go through. If I go home I might not be able to come back."

She's not entirely sure how she'd gotten here in the first place, but she knows that just on the other side of the door is another splash of venom and after all this time, hasn't she earned a break? She likes to think of it as a taunt to the gods' punishment, though she knows it's at least partly cowardice. Either way, no one else will ever know.