"That's not..." He closed his eyes, rubbed a hand ove rhis face.

"I trust you, Allison. I wouldn't...If we do this, you're going to see a side of me...No one but Wilson has seen for a very long time. It's going to be ugly. And it's going to be hard. Itr's going to be hard fr me to remember that I trust you nce the cravings kick in and..."

He brought his cane up to his head. "What the fuck am I doing? I can't do this. Forget it. Deal's off."