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milliways_bar2006-01-17 07:28 pm
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It's really kind of a roller-coaster ride, emotionally speaking: happy, depressed. Shocked, ecstatic. Musical, stilted. And through it all runs one thought: why should death be any easier than life? We come here knowing what we know but that shouldn't be all. It shouldn't be. There's more. Even just now, as he played a few tunes on his sax upstairs before setting it down, almost in a state of despair because he loves it too much, if there's any such thing.
He wants to keep on learning. Doing. Loving. Living. And he wonders how much time he has on his clock: Charlie said no one had been here for longer than two years. But musicians are notoriously bad at keeping time if they're not playing; he knows that so very well.
Gren used to have no fear of death, and he still doesn't. But he does have a healthy apprehension for what comes after death.
He takes a seat at the bar, but he doesn't order food and he doesn't order drink. He just takes it all in, thinking that it just might be a good idea to meet more people. At least that will distract him from his philosophizing -- something he's never been very good at.
He wants to keep on learning. Doing. Loving. Living. And he wonders how much time he has on his clock: Charlie said no one had been here for longer than two years. But musicians are notoriously bad at keeping time if they're not playing; he knows that so very well.
Gren used to have no fear of death, and he still doesn't. But he does have a healthy apprehension for what comes after death.
He takes a seat at the bar, but he doesn't order food and he doesn't order drink. He just takes it all in, thinking that it just might be a good idea to meet more people. At least that will distract him from his philosophizing -- something he's never been very good at.