Because he has no right to shed them. He has no right to want this that he cannot have. Hasn't he been given so much? So many extra chances, so very many blessings. It is so close to life, this. So very close, except for the living part. His hand tightens in hers.

"Please don't. It isn't worth it."

And oh, how ashamed is he that all this, and still he wants more. Isn't it enough for him to have this? To have his love?