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[bluespells.livejournal.com]

Boy, bar, several pieces of lined paper and a scowl.

He needs to figure out who to write notes to, and how to say what he needs to say.

Judging by the collection of balled-up papers nearby? It's not going well.

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[ostro_goth]

"He would not know what he seems to be doing," Teja says, gently. "Billy -- you cannot take a Nobody so very personally, react as you react to any other. He may startle you, or me: - indeed, several of them have startled me! Xaldin seems cryptic, Xigbar seems rude, Lexaeus seems unwilling to speak, and Zexion appears to regard men much like the tiny beings he would peer at through an enlargement glass that looks into the small world, that the scientists of the future use! But they are none of these things; they are merely very different beings."

Long pause.

"If I feel affection and sympathy for Xaldin, it is my own affair; if you feel hurt by his words, it is your own affair."

[bluespells.livejournal.com]

"I know that. I'm trying, damn it! They're just. Not trying as much as I am."

[ostro_goth]

"They might be trying at something different," Teja suggests. "Go speak to him again, get him to understand you still wish to help!"

[bluespells.livejournal.com]

Billy sighs, and reorganizes his papers. "I will. Thank you."

[ostro_goth]

"You are welcome," Teja says. "How long until you leave?"

[bluespells.livejournal.com]

"Well. We don't have a definite date. After tomorrow, probably the first." He sighs. "I don't want to go."

[ostro_goth]

Ahhhh.

"No man wants to go to war and hardship, risking life, limb, and loss of what he loves," Teja says. "But you know why you need to, and you know you have to."

Pause.

"There would be many things that trouble your heart; but Xaldin would know of these only in theory, just now. Do find him and speak to him, if you can, before you go; if you do not return, you would bequeath him a backlash of painful regret, upon gaining a heart, had you gone in what he might then see as anger."

[bluespells.livejournal.com]

"Yeah. Never let the sun go down on your anger and all that." He can agree with that philosophy. "I will."

[ostro_goth]

"Good," Teja says.