"I've felt better since I stopped drinking, but it's very hard not to start again. I managed to tell Carlotta that I can't cope with being stared at, and that's why I work at the stables and just come up here a few days a week. I couldn't ruin her dreams, after everything I promised about us touring six months a year. She's worked so hard to be a female ringmaster, it's so difficult and I'm proud of her, even if it's hard taking orders from my wife."
He kicks at a stone slightly. "I always wanted us to be a family, with lots of kids. I found out after we married that she wanted to wait much longer for children, wasn't sure if she wanted any at all. We married when war broke out so it was a rush. Molly came along after we bumped into each other in active service, otherwise I don't know if she'd ever have given me a child. I'm not even sure Molly is mine."
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"I've felt better since I stopped drinking, but it's very hard not to start again. I managed to tell Carlotta that I can't cope with being stared at, and that's why I work at the stables and just come up here a few days a week. I couldn't ruin her dreams, after everything I promised about us touring six months a year. She's worked so hard to be a female ringmaster, it's so difficult and I'm proud of her, even if it's hard taking orders from my wife."
He kicks at a stone slightly. "I always wanted us to be a family, with lots of kids. I found out after we married that she wanted to wait much longer for children, wasn't sure if she wanted any at all. We married when war broke out so it was a rush. Molly came along after we bumped into each other in active service, otherwise I don't know if she'd ever have given me a child. I'm not even sure Molly is mine."