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[crabbycustomer]

CURRENT carcinoGeneticist [CCG] RIGHT NOW opened memo on board MAGICAL MYSTERY BAR VIRTUAL BULLETIN BOARD

CCG: BEEN A WHILE SINCE I OPENED ONE OF THESE
CCG: LOTS OF NEW USERS
CCG: THE WAY THIS WORKS IS KIND OF A FREE FOR ALL GROUP DISCUSSION
CCG: PLEASE NOTE THAT FOR EVERYONE'S SAKE I HAVE EXCLUDED OUR PAST AND FUTURE SELVES FROM CONTRIBUTING TO THE DISCUSSION
CCG: SO THE 'CURRENT' STUFF IS MORE OR LESS VESTIGIAL AT THIS POINT
CCG: NONETHELESS....
CCG: LET'S TALK ABOUT THAT, LET'S TALK ABOUT OUR PAST AND FUTURE SELVES
CCG: HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THEM?
CCG: DO YOU EVER BLAME YOUR PAST SELF FOR YOUR CURRENT PREDICAMENTS?
CCG: OR MAKE DECISIONS IN THE PRESENT WITH THE INTENTION OF LEAVING THE PROBLEM UP TO YOUR FUTURE SELF?
CCG: IF YOU COULD TALK TO YOUR PAST OR FUTURE SELF WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?
CCG: NOT DUMB TIMELINE GAMES, I'M TALKING ABOUT PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS HERE
CCG: INSULTS, APOLOGIES, QUESTIONS, SHARING JOKES?
CCG: WHATEVER
CCG: ALTERNATE SELVES FROM CHOICES NOT MADE ARE ALSO FAIR GAME

[ooc: In and out through the day; feel free to tag in & talk among yourselves even if I'm not around!]

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[freedom_is_grey]

CAI: Wait, your friend drinks space?
CAI: How does that work?
CAI: And should I remember what a moirail is?
CAI: You use a lot of terms I don't always understand.
CAI: And I can't remember if I asked about this one.
CAI: She is not the one I gave you nugs for?

[crabbycustomer]

CCG: NO SHE DOES DRINK BLOOD SOMETIMES
CCG: MOSTLY MY BLOOD MAINLY
CCG: IT'S JUST NOT HER, LIKE, AREA OF SPECIALTY
CCG: SHE'S THE SPACE PERSON
CCG: BLOOD IS SUPPOSED TO BE MY DEAL
CCG: EXCEPT IT TURNS OUT THAT IF YOU JUST BLOW PAST ALL THE EXPOSITION SOMETIMES YOU CAN'T GO BACK AND ASK LATER!
CCG: BECAUSE SOMETIMES PLANETS EXPLODE!
CCG: SO I KIND OF NEVER FIGURED OUT WHAT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ALL ABOUT
CCG: EXCEPT THAT MAYBE IT KIND OF SUCKS, WHICH CHECKS OUT
CCG: AND NO THE NUGS WERE FOR NEPETA, THAT'S A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ROMANTIC QUADRANT

[freedom_is_grey]

CAI: Oh.
CAI: Well, if I can help with any gifts for your moirail, too, let me know
CAI: Have you tried looking in the library here?
CAI: For texts from your lost worlds that might talk about Blood, then?
CAI: Or do any experiments that are not terrifying?

[crabbycustomer]

CCG: SHE LIKES CLOTHES AND FABRICS
CCG: SHE'S A FASHION VAMPIRE
CCG: A SPACE FASHION VAMPIRE
CCG: DO YOU EVER LOOK AT YOUR LIFE AND WONDER WHAT THE FUCK YOU EVER DID TO DESERVE TO LIVE A NIMROD PULP NOVEL?
CCG: ANYWAY... IT SEEMS LIKE THERE IS NOTHING HERE OR ON THE AKASHIC SERVERS ABOUT IT
CCG: AND AFTER MANY, MANY LOST HOURS FLUSHED DOWN THE GAPER LISTENING TO KANKRI APPRECIATE HIS OWN DORSAL EFFLUVIA I DON'T THINK HE KNOWS A GODDAMN THING ABOUT IT, HE'S THE OTHER VANTAS
CCG: I HAVE TRIED TALKING TO MY OTHER GHOST SELVES ABOUT IT BUT CIRCLING BACK TO OUR TOPIC IT TURNS OUT I'M FUCKING INCAPABLE OF A CIVIL CONVERSATION WITH MYSELF
CCG: AND SOMETIMES I THINK THOSE BULLSHIT ARTISTS DON'T EVEN REALLY GET IT, NOT EVEN THE GOD TIER ONES, I THINK THEY JUST ACT SMUG AND WISE TO LORD IT OVER ME LIKE A BUNCH OF NOOKSNIFFERS
CCG: LIKE OH, IT'S TOO COMPLEX TO EXPLAIN TO SOMEONE WHO NEVER FACED HIS DENIZEN CHOICE
CCG: SELF RIGHTEOUS BULGE GNAWERS ONE AND ALL

[freedom_is_grey]

CAI: People are worst about teasing knowledge when they don't actually have it to share.
CAI: That seems relatively common, at least in my experience.
CAI: And as for fabrics, I will see what I can do.
CAI: Wade is an excellent designer, so I will see what he can whip up.
CAI: When you say other Vantas, does that mean he is an ancestor or a descendant?
CAI: Or just someone that ended up with the same second name?

[crabbycustomer]

CCG: CULLEN GAVE ME SOME VELVET
CCG: I'LL GET TO HER THE NEXT TIME SHE'S IN
CCG: HE'S BOTH OF THOSE THINGS
CCG: IT'S REALLY COMPLICATED
CCG: ACTUALLY I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S COMPLICATED AS MUCH AS IT'S STUPID
CCG: I CLONED BOTH OF US AND SENT THE WRIGGLERS BACK IN TIME TO LIVE OUT THEIR INDIVIDUAL PUTRID DESTINIES
CCG: FOR WHICH I HAVE NEVER FORGIVEN MYSELF... I'M NOT SURE HOW HE FEELS ABOUT IT, I SORT OF START TO TUNE HIM OUT AFTER A WHILE
CCG: *ANYWAY*, A VERSION OF HIM LIVED IN MY WORLD'S DISTANT PAST
CCG: AND VICE VERSA FOR HIM I GUESS
CCG: WE SWITCHED PLACES, WE ALL SWITCHED PLACES, THAT IS WHAT DISTINGUISHES OUR TWO ITERATIONS OF THE SAME UNIVERSE
CCG: HE IS ALSO A BLOOD GUY BUT HE IS SUPPOSED TO RELATE TO IT THROUGH A DIFFERENT PRACTICE
CCG: AND I DON'T THINK HE EVER BOTHERED TO LEARN ANY MORE THAN I DID TBH

[freedom_is_grey]

CAI: I hope if I meet future me she's less of a jerk.
CAI: Than that.
CAI: I like to think I would be nice to past me
CAI: But preserving causality can be kind of awful
CAI: So maybe it's inevitable that other versions of you are irritating beyond belief
CAI: For that alone

[crabbycustomer]

CCG: THE THING IS I DON'T SEE INEVITABILITY AS AN EXCUSE BECAUSE IF I DID
CCG: I LITERALLY COULDN'T BLAME ANYONE I KNOW FOR ANYTHING
CCG: WE ARE ALL PRISONERS OF INEVITABILITY AND YET SOME OF US (NOT ME) MANAGE TO NOT GET OUR HANDS SO MOTHERFUCKING DIRTY
CCG: I HAVE DONE THINGS THAT ARE INEXCUSABLE
CCG: THAT TURNED OUT TO BE TOTALLY NECESSARY
CCG: BUT I DIDN'T DO THEM BECAUSE THEY WERE NECESSARY, I DID THEM BECAUSE OF BEING A SHIT SPONGED GARBAGE MOUTH
CCG: EVERYTHING I DID I WAS FULLY COMMITTED TO AT THE TIME I DID IT

[freedom_is_grey]

CAI: I think I am going to borrow a page from your book now
CAI: Your metaphorical book
CAI: And say
CAI: You and everybody else that's ever been in a war
CAI: Or led one
CAI: Or just been really really pissed off at the world or a person in it
CAI: Or at least everyone I know has
CAI: That had the chance
CAI: So I don't really care about the shit sponged garbage mouth part
CAI: Because in their heart of hearts almost everyone is
CAI: Or can be
CAI: Or would be if they could get away with it
CAI: So whatever

[crabbycustomer]

CCG: AND YET COMPASSION HAS ITS LIMITS
CCG: WE ALL HAVE SOMEONE WE CAN'T FORGIVE
CCG: A JOWAN OR A LORD ENGLISH
CCG: OR A PAST SELF
CCG: YOU GOTTA DRAW THE LINE SOMEWHERE
CCG: YOU GOTTA MAKE A STATEMENT
CCG: YOU GOTTA LOOK INSIDE YOURSELF AND SAY, WHAT AM I GOING TO PUT UP WITH TODAY?
CCG: AND THE ANSWER COMES BACK
CCG: ***NOT FUCKING THIS***

[freedom_is_grey]

CAI: I could wish the world were built such that I'd said it fewer times in my life so far
CAI: But here I am
CAI: Making the world better for future me
CAI: Or all the future not-mes
CAI: Because actually changing anything is going to take longer than I have to be alive
CAI: So it goes