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[alwaysroomforhope]

Stephanie has discovered the fire, and is currently curled into a tight ball in an enormous armchair watching the flames. She mostly looks sad, tired and thoughtful, but every so often she giggles and hugs herself, in the manner of one who's had a lot of bad things and one incredibly good thing happen to her recently. She's got a lot to think about. But she's never been particularly good at thinking things through - it's hard work. She'd welcome distractions.

[Mace Windu helps Steph work through some more of her ever-multiplying Issues, with a little help from the Force; Steph and Connor get to know each other a little, in that we're-from-the-same-universe-let's-talk way.]

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[i-spoiled-it.livejournal.com]

"Good ... for myself?" Steph's tempted to say I don't deserve good, but she's pretty sure he wouldn't stand for that. "What do you mean?"

[vaapadmaster.livejournal.com]

"Learn. Improve. It was excess that caused your problems. excess of zeal, excessive eagerness to do something great, a great change and great good. So much excess, that you forgot you could be reaching for too much."

He rests a hand over hers. "You are doing the same thing right now. Feeling so guilty, you are trapped with inaction. So eager to be punished by your mistakes, you stopped thinking what comes next; punishment can not last forever. Such energy, is better employed elsewhere: improving the lives of people who suffer, or healing the harm previous actions caused."

He does not speak the next. He lets it echo in the Force, expecting Stephanie's mental barriers to be low enough so it will penetrate deep in her mind, and hopefully take root. A pearl of wisdom: Healer, heal thyself.

[i-spoiled-it.livejournal.com]

Healer, heal thyself. Steph's not sure where the thought comes from, but it sits there in her mind, somehow the only calm thing in her stormy thoughts.

"I ... I could ... I only wanted to help people, even in the beginning... I could do that. I could ..." ...heal myself. "...maybe I could figure out a way..."

[vaapadmaster.livejournal.com]

"You can. If you want to help, if you want to be useful, if you want it strongly enough to set aside this heavy burden of grief that is making you slow and sluggish. You can."

[i-spoiled-it.livejournal.com]

"I think I have to," Steph says slowly. "I ..."

Heal thyself.

"...yes. I will."

[vaapadmaster.livejournal.com]

"good." He smiles, approvingly. "very good."


Yes, it was somewhat a dirty trick, but... it will fade, as she improves.

[i-spoiled-it.livejournal.com]

It's probably just the sort of dirty trick she needed. She bows her head and thinks about it.

[Mun is so going to bed now. nearly 6am! eep! want to slowtime again, or fade here?]

[vaapadmaster.livejournal.com]

(fade for now. he will resume the teaching after she has given it a little tought. good night!)

[i-spoiled-it.livejournal.com]

g'night! I so love your Mace, btw. *fangirls*

[vaapadmaster.livejournal.com]

(thank you! I try *s*)