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Amberite in the bar.

Eating eggs benedict. With roast tomato.

Breakfast IS the first meal of the day, after all. And he didn't bother with that or lunch, so...

But my, doesn't he look cheerful. Come say hello?

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"It's perfectly natural that you want to be noticed."

He thinks for a moment.

"Have you considered merely sitting with him? I know when I find things overwhelming, a silent companion with whom I can simply breathe is always appreciated."

"I guess I haven't been the best to him either..."

She said, thinking of how she was always trying to get him to do things, instead of letting him just sit.

"But sometimes it bothers me how he can be so laid back. I wonder if he even cares at all. I think if I did not go to him and apologise, he wouldn't bother to come see me."

"I think he might be afraid."

He winces.

"It's not an easy thing, when you know you're wrong, to apologize. And he undoubtedly knows why you reacted the way you did. Any intelligent being would."

"Sometimes I doubt his intelligence, though not as much as his sanity."

She reflected with a wry grin.

"He wasn't in the wrong this time though. It's like I store up all this anger and then I get angry with him for no reason."

She clasped her hands together, white-knuckled and strained.

"That's why I don't plan to see him again."

Narrowed eyes.

"Aeryn Sun, do not be ridiculous."

He cocks his head.

"This relationship obviously means something to you. You will not let it drop at the first sign of difficulties. You will not assume he is too weak to deal with your temperment. You are not to assume that you're the person to decide if your reactions were too much."

A chastizing frown.

"You're no coward. There's work that needs to be done here, yes. But I don't think I know anyone stronger than you, nor anyone more capable of doing it."

"I'm not being ridiculous. I gave my child away because I was not the best thing for it. Why not give Atton up too?"

If it was up to her she would be completely alone. Or at least that was what her selfish, hardened heart told her.

She had been listening to all those people who chastised her and her self-confidence had never been so battered.

"Atton is the one who decides what's best for him."

He frowns at her.

"How would you react if I told you that people wanted to kill me, and so I was no longer going to speak to you because I decided that it made you 'unsafe'?"

"I would tell you that I was perfectly capable of looking after my..."

She paused, Random was annoyingly tricksy at times.

"Thank you. No-one else can make me see how much I've misjudged without making me feel like a failure."

She leaned forward and kissed his cheek before sitting back and smiling.

"You are a good friend."

He leans back in his seat and smiles, looking relieved.

"I'm very glad I could help. He makes you happy. That's good."

And yes, it is that simple. Why do you ask?

"Sometimes I'm not so sure."

She pushed her hair back, glad that he didn't comment on the gown or her shoeless state.

"But I'll work at it, like you said. I am strong."

"You are."

He smiles.

"Take what life gives you, and make do with it. I'm happy, and look at my situation."

"I try to be happy. But it doesn't come as easy to me."

She smiled indulgently.

"I'm a very serious person, you know?"

"I know."

He grins.

"I'll try to cure you of it."

"I've been practising joking."

She said seriously, with no trace of sarcasm. Not to mention the earth phrases she had been trying out.

"Three nuns walk into a bar. The fourth one quacks."

Evidently she would need to practice some more.

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