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She can see him from her booth. He's sitting in the back, almost hiding, but from her booth, above the heads of other patrons, Jaina can see him. She can see him and she can feel him, but that feeling's only in the Force. Loud and clear in the Force, strong or maybe even stronger than any bond she's ever shared with Jace.

But Zekk's not in her mind. He's not there reading her thoughts and being her and her being him and he's gone. The mindmeld's gone.

Gone and there and Jaina keeps watching him, not touching the mug of ale in front of her.

It hurts. A lot.

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"He's still here, Jaina." The muscles in his jaw clench for just a moment, a spasm of jealousy that he tries to ignore. His arm tightens around her possessively. "I'm here."

Jag knows it's unfair and childish and wrong, but times like these he wishes the tall, dark Jedi was dead. Or at least that he'd never formed that bond with Jaina. Or was just out of the picture completely. It would make things so much easier.

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She feels his arm tighten around her and it doesn't take the Force to know why. Normally, she likes it when he acts like this, because it makes her feel important and loved.

But tonight, right now, she just wants to hear another voice in her head. Jaina doesn't want to be alone and it feels like it, even with him here. It's just not the same tonight.

She places a hand on his cheek and looks up at him, smiling faintly. "I know you are. You've always been here for me. Thank you."

It's still not the same.

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"You do the same for me," he replies, smiling slightly. Jag hopes that this is a sign of her mood lifting. Perhaps a change of subject would help with that too.

He looks at the wall where the door ought to be. Reminding her that they're both still Bound is probably not the best thing to bring up just now.

Cake and ale are not exactly good points for conversation jumps either. Kriff.

Maybe just sitting here and holding her will be enough for now.

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Jaina nods and leans against him again, giving him a tight squeeze. ""

And then, there's that part of her that's happy that it is gone. Because no meld means privacy again. And it means she can really be just her again.

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"I know."

He won't say that he's sorry it's gone, because he's not, but he doesn't like to see her this upset. Maybe with time, it'll fade away and she'll get used to just being Jaina again. He hopes.

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She sighs again and shuts her eyes, as if it would make any difference.

No. Nothing. Zekk's still only present through the Force and she can't hear anyone else in her mind.