kurosakiboy.livejournal.comIchigo (the REAL Ichigo) walks into the bar with an odd expression on his face. He doesn't know what to feel. He should be happy. He won. He did it. He succeeded. He saved her, she's not going to die, everything is good again.
Except it's not. He failed, lost, nearly let her die. It's haunting him, even after a day of rest and recovery. He lay there, broken, powerless, and watched as a sick and twisted shell of a man prepared to kill his friend. And then he found some new strength, some reserve tucked far away, and he put everything he had into one last attack, one last attempt to save her.
And the son of a bitch stopped the blade with one finger.
She was saved, in the end, even if it wasn't by Ichigo, and the bastard got away, with the help of some friends. So really, in the end, Ichigo won, but still, he knows he lost, and that combination makes him feel numb inside.
The Shinigami walks over to a table, staring straight ahead as he ignores the world around him. He sits down, drops the large sword to the ground, leans his head back, and closes his eyes. If he weren't so detached from it all, if he hadn't spent the last six years putting up walls every second of every day, he might have very well broken down into tears from the sheer pressure of it all, the enormity of what he had done, what he had failed at, and what was to come.
But he has spent those years sheltering himself, he has spent the time keeping everyone away, and so he doesn't break down, and he doesn't cry, he just sits there, head tilted back, eyes closed, numb.
Because he's a Death God, and Death gods are strong. And more importantly, he's a Kurosaki.
And Kurosaki boys don't cry.
[ooc: Tag away! Not plot-locked or anything, just so you know. He could use somebody to talk to.]