ext_111371 ([identity profile] eternal-boy.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] milliways_bar2005-01-17 09:05 am

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Nick comes down from his room. He's cleaned up since...the last few days. He looks a little lost, but his clothing and hair and appearance is otherwise impecable. He nearly stumbles on the way to the bar, eyes staring at anything but the actual environment around him. He sits. He stares.

He orders some food and begins to sip.

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 05:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know. You said... you said 'you are loved'. That doesn't work. It doesn't fit."

He can smell the blood. Sharp coppery tang, like airborne metal cloying at the back of his throat.

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know. It just doesn't. Love doesn't happen to people like me."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
He fights back the urge to laugh again. Laughing now will not help things any. He rubs the fading bite mark again.

"I'm not used to it."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Alex glances at him, and shivers slightly.

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know. That'd be why I asked."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"I never said you had answers. But you've probably got more than I do."

He looks away again, biting his lip.

"Why did you make it?"

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
He looks at the blood Nick's drinking.

"Is that human, or animal? Which one is better?"

He sounds genuinely curious.

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"You did. That wasn't what I was asking."

He hesitates, then holds out his hand, the underside of his wrist facing Nick.

"Do you want to...?"

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
maybe I want it to hurt me

Alex shrugs and drinks more of his tea.

"I've lost blood before."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
neither am I. neither are you. we both said as much

He doesn't protest the fingers touching his face.

"I'm sure you know what masochism is."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
"Different how?"

He lets Nick run his fingers over his face, his throat.

"Don't ask me to answer that. I don't think I can."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"I would've thought you'd want me to lose."

He glances down at the bar, tracing the grain with his fingers.

Why? Because it's wrongright and he doesn't understand. So he says simply;

"I don't understand it."

[identity profile] theprettiestone.livejournal.com 2005-01-17 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"Should've done a lot of things I didn't. Shouldn't've done a lot of things I did."

He keeps looking at the Bar, tracing idle shapes with his fingertips.

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