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May. 7th, 2007 09:58 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
"A man's dying is more the survivors' affair than his own." --Thomas Mann
While Matt hadn't to this day put such a saying to paper, he'd thought as much most of his life. After all, it wasn't the dead man who had to bury the body or arrange matters with the gravedigger or leave flowers on the grave. The dead man was dead, as cogniscent of trouble as a doornail...
Or so he'd thought.
Then he'd died and he'd ended up here and his perception of everything from top to bottom had been utterly flipped round. Now he was dead and he had to see the look in his brother's face when he woke up from it here and he'd had to watch Dick blame himself for it and he'd had to write something to give to those left behind instead of letting them figure out their own destinies. To this day, he didn't know if he'd written it to comfort them or himself.
He didn't want to think about it.
But now he's looking at that door and thinking on little Patrick, his nephew who was doing so well with his letters. He was young yet, but bright, and while he's sure the tyke wouldn't be reading for some years, he figures he's done right by him. Read to him. Got to meet him, which is probably the only thing he'll thank the place for when all is said and done. That's why he's looking at the door.
Looking... and hoping Dick comes by as they've things to discuss.
While Matt hadn't to this day put such a saying to paper, he'd thought as much most of his life. After all, it wasn't the dead man who had to bury the body or arrange matters with the gravedigger or leave flowers on the grave. The dead man was dead, as cogniscent of trouble as a doornail...
Or so he'd thought.
Then he'd died and he'd ended up here and his perception of everything from top to bottom had been utterly flipped round. Now he was dead and he had to see the look in his brother's face when he woke up from it here and he'd had to watch Dick blame himself for it and he'd had to write something to give to those left behind instead of letting them figure out their own destinies. To this day, he didn't know if he'd written it to comfort them or himself.
He didn't want to think about it.
But now he's looking at that door and thinking on little Patrick, his nephew who was doing so well with his letters. He was young yet, but bright, and while he's sure the tyke wouldn't be reading for some years, he figures he's done right by him. Read to him. Got to meet him, which is probably the only thing he'll thank the place for when all is said and done. That's why he's looking at the door.
Looking... and hoping Dick comes by as they've things to discuss.